New times and a new begining

It's been along time since I wrote you on this site. Alot has happened to me since the last time we talked. My dreams have all been snatched out from under me once again. Lets see wheres the best place to start... 1st a bounty hunter shows up at my apartment in Biloxi, takes me to jail to Paulding Co. Where I spend 37 days for a Terroristic threat which by the way is a crock of crap. Then I find out that Douglas Co wants me for some bull crap, so I spend 14 days there. So lets see I think I can still add so that's 51 days of my life that I have lost to the Legal system. So the threat, you tell me if I'm in the wrong??? I get 40 or 50 harassing phone calls form my ex wife in a row now and I finally snap and tell her I'm coming to the house to choke her. She then gets a TPO and a warrant for my arrest. I don't know what this world is coming to but, when has the harasser became the harassie??? The legal system is full of Crap. The whole thing is set up for money and that's all. I'm not even going to get into the Douglas Co crap... So I have lost everything once again. Doesn't surprise me it just pisses me off that every time I get ahead someone comes and rains on my party. So know I'm stuck in Atl with no Casinos and no job trying to get back on my feet. I lost my Apartment, car, job, friends, but more important my career. I hate working for someone who doesn't know shit and is telling me what to do. I can't stand it!!!!!!!!!! No on wants to hire a CONVICTED FELON. So back to the chaulk board I go. But I can say some good things that I have found out in my life since being locked up. I have found GOD. He has opened some doors for me and things are looking brighter. I have just gotten were my game is coming back to me. If you ever have seen Rounders then you know how the Jail scene is I had 2 games Spades, and Texas holdem. I had just to saty sain in there, plus if you wanna eat good you have to gamble and be very good at it. I've been out since Sep 11, I just got my DL back today so lets hope and prey that somethings start to fall back into place for me. Enough about the bad times, it's like I always say its time to DO WORK my friends

What has happen to me?

Start off by saying I knew the temptation was going to be a motherfucker. But I thoughth I could fight it better than what I have. I find myself drinking at the table bullshitting with people and actually no enjoying what my job is. Yes I have taken some horrible beats, but thats part of the game. Why have I changed some much in just a couple of months. Going to shows partying my ass off, worried about some shit that shouldn't even matter. Trying to fit in and not grinding it out like I should be doing. I'm sure all poker payers go thru it but I thought I was better and stronger for that matter. I guess not! So I have learned some very tough but great lessons in my short time here. I have turned a new page in my life and in my poker career. NO more games no more trying to fit in. I should of done this a long time ago. NO more drinking at the table no more tryng to make friends. I'll have plenty of time to do shit when I make it. I should of been there already but I guess we all make mistakes.... Not me!

So I realized this the other night at the hard rock. I play with this cat all the time and I know how he plays. I can read him like a book. But I had been drinking again. !st hand I sit down and look at AKs I only bought in for 60 so I push knowing I would get called. Hes got QQ I get lucky and hit a A on the river. So I have 120. I grind it to 150 I get AQo on the button He raises to 10 cut off calls I call flop is 10,Q,K he bets cut off calls I call turn is a 10 he checks cutoff check I check. River is a 9 all rainbow. He checks cutoff checks I bet 35 he raises to 70 cut off folds knew he didn't have shit anyway. I think about it I call he has quad 10's. I would of never made that call if I hadn't been drinking that night. Just dumbass shit like that is why I'm changing for me and everyone. I don't do that. But I did. No more not me. Not ever again. The Beau championship is Aug 26 thru Sep 6. Mainevent is 5 grand. But you can sat in so thats the plan. I had a dream. It was good but I'm not going to say a word. Will have to see. Do dreams really come true??????

Do Work son....

Rough goings!

So it's been awhile since I've written. Alot has happened since the last time I checked in. I've been playing alot at the HR due to the fact I don't want to pay for my time at the tables, like at the Beau and IP. So HR has been the place of choice, until the bad beats started happening. Within a 3 week period I have had not one winning session, I 've tried to look at my game and change it to fit the tables but that didn't work either. It seems that I get called with hands that shouldn't be calling . I understand the suited connector theory and just suited cards, but thats not the hands I'm getting beat with. 72o, j4o,q4,84,k7o, just to name a few. This hand here will give you a better ideal of what I've been dealing with. This is tha deep satck at the Beau on wendsdays and fridays. So I had been playing really well this tournament up until this hand. I'm in the SB seats 1 thru 5 fold blinds are 8 and 16oo 300 ante Seat 6 raises to 5700 it folds around to me I look down at Qd Qs I have 17k in front of me and I decide to push for all of it this guy had been raising every other hand he has about 25k in front of him. He thinks for about 2 min and says I have 2 overs on you and I call he flips over KQo. for 17k in chips which would leave him 8k or so. He's a 83 to 17 underdog, unless he flops a str draw. 3 outs to beat me. To make a long story short the window card is a K. Bye I'm out of the tournament in 20th. Thats how it's been for the past 3 weeks same exact thing everytime. But I know It will change in the near future. Cash games have been awful. No competition at all. Just people playing what I call lottery poker, parying to god that they hit the jackpot hand , so they call you down with nothing and hit. No skill, just luckier than me.

With all that said, I want to take a stab at the black jack table and see if I can make up for the loses that have occured the past 3 weeks. That starts off great I'm up 300 and want to press my luck and the next thing you know I'm down another 1000. But hey it's only money right????
Things should brighten up here shortly.....

DO WORK son.....

Breaking the Golden rule!!!!

So I told myself, stick to the 200 a day plan until the BR got back right but guess what I can't follow rules. I have been up for 3 str days now within the 1st 2 hours of sitting down and have been sucked out on everyday about 4 hrs in. I know it's coming but for some fuckin reason I talk myself into staying because the table is easy money. With easy money comes easily getting sucked out on time after time. I need some help or some time to clear my head. This is rediculous, 3 days in a row how can that be? Everytime I flop the nuts on the board it comes runner, runner. The math say's it's not possible but I'm seeing it 1st hand. I always say it you can't beat luck no matter how good or great you are. When someone has been hit in the head with a deck of cards there's nothing you can do about it. It's killing me 3 fuckin days now!!!! How the fuck is that possible?? Please someone answer that I'm begging you. I could understand if I sat there and didn't play a hand for hours, then the math would add up, but I don't I play the game. I see flops, I make moves. The bad beats just keep coming. I know every poker player has his bad beats, but god damn it. It's been this way for the 3 months I've been here. Yes you make your money off the donkey's or the fish. My question is when am I going to get payed off for reelin in the big fish? My goal when I moved here was to see if I could hang, and if I could stay for 6 month's and move to Vegas. I have answered my question some many time's. YES. Sooner or later my cards and my play will hold up and when they do look out everyone, cause I'm going to break Biloxi. I have not seen or heard of a good or great player down here yet that can hang on a table with me or Mike. It's never out played it's always sucked out on. If it was out played I wouldn't have 1 complaint, but it's not. I know I fold the best hand all the time just to catch you slippin, but when I do you still win because your luckier then me I guess. Your luckk has to run out sometime and when it does I'll be there waiting as always to take your money.

DO WORK son...

The Hunted...

Have you ever felt like you have done everything in your power for someone or something?Went out of your way not to be seen or heard to stay out of sight so you would stay out of mind? Well this is how I feel right now. No matter what I do or how much money I send to my ex wife I get harassed. I haven't seen or talked to my babies in about 8 months due to her. I write I call but all I get is stay away, they don't need you. I get told I'm a peice of shit because I wanted the divorce, just from her not my kids. Question have you ever wanted something so bad, thats all you think about??? Well just want my kids, hell I would take a phone convo or just a couple of words. I love them so much I don't know what else to do, I'm going crazy. Remember I told ya'll about the emails I was recieveing from her new boyfriend. Well I got a phone call the other day saying I was saw in their sub divsion, of course I wasn't I was here, but anyway think back and you'll remember I was told. That this dude would kick my ass if I came around to see my kids. Well when they heard I was in the nieghborhood, the big bad Captain America called the cops on me. So much for him being a bad ass huh??? Just amazes me that no matter what I do I'm the topic of everyones talks. Why can't I be left alone so I can live my life and take care of my kids??? I know there's always 2 sides of every story I just wish you guys could hear them both. It wouldn't take much for you to figure out the truth promise you. If anyone has any answers or thoughts please feel free to write me and tell me about them, I don't know what else to do or say at this point.
DO WORK son....

Deep stack at the Beau...

Today was the 1st day we have played a tournament in along time. Let me start by saying I really enjoyed it. The touranment had 45 people in it. So the pay out wasn't quite what I wanted but it was ok. I told my self that I would play full game and not this bullshit I have been playing. I start off reaaly strong and by the 1st break i have about 27k in chips. We come back from break and I got a bad feelomg in my gut like a bad beat was coming. Sure enuff it came. I have 98s in the BB 1 limper and the SB. I check. The blinds are 2 and 4 hundred. The flop is 8,7,10. SB checks I bet 400 limper calls SB folds. Turn is a 8, I check and limper bets 12oo I call. The river is a 6, I bet 9k to make it look like a bluff to get called by 86 off, to be beat by 8's full of 6's. so know I have lost about 13k in chips. So that puts me at about 14k next hand I have 88 in the SB 5 limpers I raise to 1600 everyone folds but the 9 seat he raises all in to 5k I call of course I now am ahead. He has AJh, He flops 2 hearts blank on the turn and river is a heart. So now I have 9k in chips, I move tables. I sit down with the chip leader of the tourament he has about 90k in chips and in pushing everyone around, I fold some big hands to him, but don't really have the chips to fight back at this point. Blinds are now 500 and 1000. I have 6500 in the BB I look at A7 off 1 limper I push he calls AQ off A hits the flop blank, blank I'm out in 18th. I do have good news Mike place 6th so we're even for the day. I loved how the tourny was set up I will be playing in those every week from here on out. If my cards hold up I come top 3 and get paid. But anyway till next time.

DO WORK son.....

Freerolls......

I do not like the online game what so ever. But there are some good things that have come from it.
1. The sites give you and chance to practice for free.
2. They have a good amount of freerolls.
With these things said, it's not always good for the person who is trying to learn. You have alot of players that just get on and push no matter what. No learning going on at all. The people who want to learn are shit out of luck if the person that's pushes gets lucky with the worst hand. Also the blinds go up so fast there's no time to have or set a game plan. Take the freeroll for the Main event the blinds raise every 2 mins that's ridiculous. No time to play premium hands, you just have to push and hope you get lucky and double up.
This is were the problem is with online poker. The players get lucky and suck out with the worst cards, and believe that it happens that way in a live game. Sorry it don't! I have debated about whether the online game is fixed or not? I believe it is, without a doubt in my mind. Take all the drama with the whole Absolute poker site. They had someone with a master program. They could see all the whole cards and knew what the flop would be. Killin people online. Now we have the Ultimate bet scandal. The same thing has happen there. So now make your judgement for the online game from this. The other argument is that they make all there money from the buy in's, this is very true but think about it the more tourny's they play the more money they make it's not that hard. Just think about people.

DO WORK son